So when i wake up in the morning i have all these good thoughts, i should do this, and i should do that. The amont of stuff i actually get done would only be about 15% of all the weeks - I should do this today.
Today i thought it would be really nice to go for a walk and stop at the pools on the way home, but after asking a few people, and no-one wanting to come i thought that there was no point in driving an hour to go and hung out on my own when i could just hung out with the kids on my own at home.
I am doing well having a big lunch and a little dinner, not so good on my eating breakfast. I just really hating making breakfast. What i should be doing is getting up with my partner and the kids and having breakfast with them. Maybe i need to get something real yummy for breakfast so that i want to get up and eat breakfast. - As i hate milk, breakfast and i really dont match, for some reason i don't eat toast in the morning (i know i prob should).
I have thought that it would be nice go head into town tonight and take the kids to the park and have a pinic... Then we could go for a walk around the park (we have a really big park). So this walking thing is real pain too, just need to keep telling myself not to be so lazy if i wanna get back down to that wedding dress i want.
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Eating
So eating healthy is not my strongest point, I do try but my version of eating healthy is having no fast food such as McDonald's, BK, Fish n Chips etc....
Today for Lunch i am making a roast Chicken, with sliverbeet, broc, kumera, pumpkin and Potatoes. Last night i had Kebabs as my "healthy" take aways - but with no cheese and no chips, a little mouthful of coke....
I am not sure what we are having for dinner but it will be something lite i would think - maybe ham wraps or something. I have so now planned tomorrow nights dinner, which is Chicken Risotto with broc, sliverbeet, peas, carrots.
I have such a sore tooth tho so i need to stay off the fizzy drinks :)
Today for Lunch i am making a roast Chicken, with sliverbeet, broc, kumera, pumpkin and Potatoes. Last night i had Kebabs as my "healthy" take aways - but with no cheese and no chips, a little mouthful of coke....
I am not sure what we are having for dinner but it will be something lite i would think - maybe ham wraps or something. I have so now planned tomorrow nights dinner, which is Chicken Risotto with broc, sliverbeet, peas, carrots.
I have such a sore tooth tho so i need to stay off the fizzy drinks :)
Monday, November 22, 2010
Silly season has started
Its been a while since my last entry. With the silly season up and coming, I was even more busy over the last few days.
All my Christmas shopping is almost tired up, just need to buy for my mummy and daddy. All presents wrapped and ready to go. With this time of year the boys are all busy doing silage/hay - so that means there is some real late nights and long days. We have been feeling every tried in this house.
On Friday i worked - that was a busy night, also i night to think why am i working in hospo, we had shit people and shit tables it was such a crap night. Saturday - we went to town to do some shopping and a few job that we needed to do, where i fully cheated and got BK - turns out that my burgers are so much better and not sure why we even bothered. Also we went for a 5 km walk with my family (in the rain), my sister got shitty with her husband and me as we kept baiting her about the walk. I am sure it made her go harder, but then i felt i should wait for my brother-in-law and niece otherwise they would have been left behind. Then i went to work for 8 hrs and finished at 2am.
Sunday we took a day off as i was super grumpy and super tried. We did walk around and around while i decided what to get my sisters for Chirstmas.
Monday I went to town as i had to met the lawyer, then we had lunch, picked up my new sunglasses (its amazing how much i can see now while i am driving.) I didnt get home until 6pm and my partner didnt get home til half 6 so we didnt go for a walk then either, by the time we made dinner, cleaned up and put the kids to bed, it was about 8.30pm and all i wanted to do was go to bed.
We shell go for a walk tonight, - altho we do also need to go to town to get some food, so we will have to see if we go tonight also, but after lunch, my youngest and i will go for a walk and watch them do silage (that will be about a 3 km walk).
All my Christmas shopping is almost tired up, just need to buy for my mummy and daddy. All presents wrapped and ready to go. With this time of year the boys are all busy doing silage/hay - so that means there is some real late nights and long days. We have been feeling every tried in this house.
On Friday i worked - that was a busy night, also i night to think why am i working in hospo, we had shit people and shit tables it was such a crap night. Saturday - we went to town to do some shopping and a few job that we needed to do, where i fully cheated and got BK - turns out that my burgers are so much better and not sure why we even bothered. Also we went for a 5 km walk with my family (in the rain), my sister got shitty with her husband and me as we kept baiting her about the walk. I am sure it made her go harder, but then i felt i should wait for my brother-in-law and niece otherwise they would have been left behind. Then i went to work for 8 hrs and finished at 2am.
Sunday we took a day off as i was super grumpy and super tried. We did walk around and around while i decided what to get my sisters for Chirstmas.
Monday I went to town as i had to met the lawyer, then we had lunch, picked up my new sunglasses (its amazing how much i can see now while i am driving.) I didnt get home until 6pm and my partner didnt get home til half 6 so we didnt go for a walk then either, by the time we made dinner, cleaned up and put the kids to bed, it was about 8.30pm and all i wanted to do was go to bed.
We shell go for a walk tonight, - altho we do also need to go to town to get some food, so we will have to see if we go tonight also, but after lunch, my youngest and i will go for a walk and watch them do silage (that will be about a 3 km walk).
Thursday, November 18, 2010
the weekend
As i am gearing up for the weekend,
Last night we went for a 2 km walk across some country, carrying the kids. Its actually really hard carrying 6kg and walking across uneven ground. We only had a little walk to keep it up but as i have gone from doing not much to doing heaps my legs actually really hurts.
This weekend i am planning to stay with my mum as i am working two days this weekend which will be really good for me. I actually really enjoy working.
To do list today,
Last night we went for a 2 km walk across some country, carrying the kids. Its actually really hard carrying 6kg and walking across uneven ground. We only had a little walk to keep it up but as i have gone from doing not much to doing heaps my legs actually really hurts.
This weekend i am planning to stay with my mum as i am working two days this weekend which will be really good for me. I actually really enjoy working.
To do list today,
- c25k
- Dishes
- Washing
- Cleaning the living room and my bedroom
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Thursday
Man talk about being depressed today. After chatting with my sister I thought i had the highest BMI out of all my sisters. But it turns out not, which secretly i am please about.
My twin sister weighs the same as me so she says but is 3 cm higher than i am.
My partner messed up last night tho, I asked him a question like "do you think my ass looks big in this" (not quite that question tho), and basically he said yes. Then wondered why i got grumpy at him. As he said I was mean because I tricked him....
I am going out for lunch today - so i think ill get a warm chicken salad.
My twin sister weighs the same as me so she says but is 3 cm higher than i am.
My partner messed up last night tho, I asked him a question like "do you think my ass looks big in this" (not quite that question tho), and basically he said yes. Then wondered why i got grumpy at him. As he said I was mean because I tricked him....
I am going out for lunch today - so i think ill get a warm chicken salad.
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
YAY its going my way!
So I am totally pleased, I have lost 700grams since Sunday :) YAY for me.
I have not been for a run today as i did for the last 2 days, not every successfully tho but we went for a nice 4 km walk to the end of the road and back (which is not the normal way we will be walking).
After a late night at work last night - being run off my feet, it would be really interesting to see how many steps i actually did. Yes at points i was even running. I felt really tired today but with my partner helping my motivation, we did actually put the kids in the pushchair and off we went.
For dinner I made really yummy chicken burgers which had lots of fresh lettuce (nicely donated by my mum, even if she didn't know it) beetroot, tomato, cheese and mayo - I am like the queen of making burgers.
I have been drinking a little more water today than normal, so now i just need to up it a little more and i will be on the right track.
I have not been for a run today as i did for the last 2 days, not every successfully tho but we went for a nice 4 km walk to the end of the road and back (which is not the normal way we will be walking).
After a late night at work last night - being run off my feet, it would be really interesting to see how many steps i actually did. Yes at points i was even running. I felt really tired today but with my partner helping my motivation, we did actually put the kids in the pushchair and off we went.
For dinner I made really yummy chicken burgers which had lots of fresh lettuce (nicely donated by my mum, even if she didn't know it) beetroot, tomato, cheese and mayo - I am like the queen of making burgers.
I have been drinking a little more water today than normal, so now i just need to up it a little more and i will be on the right track.
Monday, November 15, 2010
Day two
After a long conversation with my partner last night, we have decided that if i am stuck between a rock and a hard place then he will be my rock. We have decided that every night after he has finished work we will put the kiddies into the pushchair and we will do walk/run to the end of our road and back which will be just over 6 k's. we live 2.77 k's away from the end of the road. So that is a good place to start.
Tonight was meant to be our first one, but we now have put it off until tomorrow night as i have to now work tonight, so i should now really get off the sofa today and go for another run/walk around the house. As long as i beat my 20 mins in one go that i did yesterday and have a few more runs then i will be really happy.
I should get a lot of steps while i am at work as i will be moving the whole shift and made a personal goal not to sit while i am at work.
OK so on the 2nd day of the try and run a 5 k run, I managed to run about 4 Min's which is better than yesterday and walk a total of 30mins. I must be really unfit becoz i am hot and yuck now. I cant wait until my partner starts it with me tomorrow and helps me push through the "i cant do this, ill just walk".
Mini goal: Drink more water.
Tonight was meant to be our first one, but we now have put it off until tomorrow night as i have to now work tonight, so i should now really get off the sofa today and go for another run/walk around the house. As long as i beat my 20 mins in one go that i did yesterday and have a few more runs then i will be really happy.
I should get a lot of steps while i am at work as i will be moving the whole shift and made a personal goal not to sit while i am at work.
OK so on the 2nd day of the try and run a 5 k run, I managed to run about 4 Min's which is better than yesterday and walk a total of 30mins. I must be really unfit becoz i am hot and yuck now. I cant wait until my partner starts it with me tomorrow and helps me push through the "i cant do this, ill just walk".
Mini goal: Drink more water.
Sunday, November 14, 2010
First day to the 5 km run....
OK so for my first day on the "lets get healthy and clean up my life" and i am running 5 kms in 10 weeks.... I failed my first run/walk. I only got to do 12mins, wen i basically decided i had, had enough and couldn't be bothered to keep going. I was walking in bare feet on the grass around our house, as my youngest was still inside asleep and my eldest was outside playing with the cat. This is not a good start at all. Now all i wanna do is sit on the sofa with my packet of chocolate biscuits and eat them :( - So i have chosen not to eat the pack of chocolate biscuits but to get off this sofa and have another go. So this time i have given up on the run today, and just try for a 30min work. So i made 20mins before my partner turned up home and then we decided that i should go for a walk with him across the farm. So instead of doing the extra ten mins walking around the house, i drove up the road and walked around two big hills for the next 40mins. Not a bad effort - expect still no running so we will try again tomorrow for that run. Still every proud of myself.
Alot of people think why? Why are you putting yourself through that and its alot harder than a walk that we do with the kids etc... WHY? why not? I am up for the task just so i can say i have done it, worked hard to get there but i have completed it.
Alot of people think why? Why are you putting yourself through that and its alot harder than a walk that we do with the kids etc... WHY? why not? I am up for the task just so i can say i have done it, worked hard to get there but i have completed it.
Stuck between a rock and a hard place
So - I feel i am stuck been a rock and a very hard place.
Sometimes it is alot easier to write than actually tell others how you really feel. Wen i was younger, i had the whole world in my lap and ready to take on anything that was thrown at me without a care in the world. I was planning on leaving to do my big OE, working and traveling at the sametime. I had planned to leave Feb 2009 after my eldest sisters wedding. Until after my 23rd birthday i found out i was pregnant. I throw around the idea of what to do with that, I finally decided i would have her, and that i could adpot her out. After having her grow in me for 9 months, i could not adpot her out, so there went my goals in life. Ever since i have been lost in life and not really known really what i want. Since then i have met my lovely partner who we have no had another lovely little girl, and have planned to get married Nov next year.
I have no idea what to do with myself these days, i have no goals and not sure where i want life to head.
Since having two kids i have put on so much weight and lost all drive to do anything. The bigger i get the less drive i have.
So in the weekend my sister decided that mum, my sisters, brother in laws and cousin are all going to do a 5k run in jusst ten weeks. This will b my first step to become back to the size ten before my wedding and the start of putting my life back on track.
Goals:
1. get back to pre-pregancy weight.
2. decide what caree i want and what director we want to go in life
Sometimes it is alot easier to write than actually tell others how you really feel. Wen i was younger, i had the whole world in my lap and ready to take on anything that was thrown at me without a care in the world. I was planning on leaving to do my big OE, working and traveling at the sametime. I had planned to leave Feb 2009 after my eldest sisters wedding. Until after my 23rd birthday i found out i was pregnant. I throw around the idea of what to do with that, I finally decided i would have her, and that i could adpot her out. After having her grow in me for 9 months, i could not adpot her out, so there went my goals in life. Ever since i have been lost in life and not really known really what i want. Since then i have met my lovely partner who we have no had another lovely little girl, and have planned to get married Nov next year.
I have no idea what to do with myself these days, i have no goals and not sure where i want life to head.
Since having two kids i have put on so much weight and lost all drive to do anything. The bigger i get the less drive i have.
So in the weekend my sister decided that mum, my sisters, brother in laws and cousin are all going to do a 5k run in jusst ten weeks. This will b my first step to become back to the size ten before my wedding and the start of putting my life back on track.
Goals:
1. get back to pre-pregancy weight.
2. decide what caree i want and what director we want to go in life
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