Numbers

I have just worked out my BMI and my body fat percentage, 
The thing is what number is better to listen to the BMI or the Body fat percentage?? 
My body fat says i am in a healthy range but my BMI says i am overweight? 
My Bodyfat % is 26.71 and my BMI is 29.59, 
its all just so confusing, I am halfway to my goal weight - another 10 kg to go, or 12 really but i am excited. 

Half way there

After losing 14 kgs, i am finally over half way there. 
Another 10 to go and i will have reached my goal weight. Its been hard work and i have been distracted a few times. Gone up and done around the same weigh i just couldn't get passed but i have finally made it!!! 
I have spent hours of tears and sweat trying to change my body into the ones i see in my dreams. All i have to do is tell myself i am going to make it! i will get there...

here we go again

Its 38 weeks until I am lying on a beach in the gold coast lapping up the sun. But until there I have 37 weeks until my wedding.

I am pretty calm about the whole wedding thing its self, we have pretty much booked everything, paid all deposits and have most things planned. There are about 20 people to many on my invite list but that doesn’t seem to be that big of a deal, as long as we find enough money it should be fine. It’s amazing how fast the list builds up, the usual thing of course names keep being added to my list and I just can’t find people to cut. A lot of friends are just being invited to the after do, there may be a lot of unhappy people, but I still have kids to feed.

The bit I am not happy about is how much time I have to lose all the weight that I have put on after having the kids. I have never been this big in all my life and it makes me quite unhappy a lot of the time. I just can’t seem to look at myself the same. I can lose a little, a couple of kg but I just seem to put them back on again. One positive thing is that, I don’t seem to be getting any bigger; I have my range that I seem to stick around. Moving within a few kg’s each side. I have cut out most fast foods, but of course I am still really bad at adding fat and butter to my cooking at home. We do eat a lot of “meat and 3 or 4 types of veggie” meals but it’s trying to cut out that butter for the potatoes or pumpkin, and that salt on mostly everything else. That wanting to cook in probably about 4 times the amount of oil that I should be. I know the importance of eating breakfast, I just can’t seem to get myself eating in the morning, in fact sometimes the first meal of the day won’t be until lunch or 2.

I don’t exactly come from a slim family; right across the board it seems to be something that we are all fighting with. There is usually at least one if not all of us saying each week “Oh I am going to get healthy, starting this week” or “I’m going on a diet, I want to lose this amount of weight”.  Most of the time you find yourself fighting against yourself to not be as bigger as them, be fitter and better, Sometimes this helps but most of the time it can be your worst enemy, as soon as you see one of them looking better or slimmer than you, after you have put in all this work to try and get down, it can start to play with your mind.

Maybe I only have myself to blame for this anyway, the idea of getting out and doing exercise really don’t do much for me. I need to get up off the sofa and start to do something, take control of what I can. I need to start to learn about calories, Foods and what not. And I guess the first step begins with me.  

Getting out and doin it

So when i wake up in the morning i have all these good thoughts, i should do this, and i should do that. The amont of stuff i actually get done would only be about 15% of all the weeks - I should do this today.
Today i thought it would be really nice to go for a walk and stop at the pools on the way home, but after asking a few people, and no-one wanting to come i thought that there was no point in driving an hour to go and hung out on my own when i could just hung out with the kids on my own at home.
I am doing well having a big lunch and a little dinner, not so good on my eating breakfast. I just really hating making breakfast. What i should be doing is getting up with my partner and the kids and having breakfast with them. Maybe i need to get something real yummy for breakfast so that i want to get up and eat breakfast. - As i hate milk, breakfast and  i really dont match, for some reason i don't eat toast in the morning (i know i prob should).
I have thought that it would be nice go head into town tonight and take the kids to the park and have a pinic... Then we could go for a walk around the park (we have a really big park). So this walking thing is real pain too, just need to keep telling myself not to be so lazy if i wanna get back down to that wedding dress i want.

Eating

So eating healthy is not my strongest point, I do try but my version of eating healthy is having no fast food such as McDonald's, BK, Fish n Chips etc....
Today for Lunch i am making a roast Chicken, with sliverbeet, broc, kumera, pumpkin and Potatoes. Last night i had Kebabs as my "healthy" take aways - but with no cheese and no chips, a little mouthful of coke....
I am not sure what we are having for dinner but it will be something lite i would think - maybe ham wraps or something. I have so now planned tomorrow nights dinner, which is Chicken Risotto with broc, sliverbeet, peas, carrots.
I have such a sore tooth tho so i need to stay off the fizzy drinks :)

Silly season has started

Its been a while since my last entry. With the silly season up and coming, I was even more busy over the last few days.
All my Christmas shopping is almost tired up, just need to buy for my mummy and daddy. All presents wrapped and ready to go. With this time of year the boys are all busy doing silage/hay - so that means there is some real late nights and long days. We have been feeling every tried in this house.
On Friday i worked - that was a busy night, also i night to think why am i working in hospo, we had shit people and shit tables it was such a crap night. Saturday - we went to town to do some shopping and a few job that we needed to do, where i fully cheated and got BK - turns out that my burgers are so much better and not sure why we even bothered. Also we went for a 5 km walk with my family (in the rain), my sister got shitty with her husband and me as we kept baiting her about the walk. I am sure it made her go harder, but then i felt i should wait for my brother-in-law and niece otherwise they would have been left behind. Then i went to work for 8 hrs and finished at 2am.
Sunday we took a day off as i was super grumpy and super tried. We did walk around and around while i decided what to get my sisters for Chirstmas.
Monday I went to town as i had to met the lawyer, then we had lunch, picked up my new sunglasses (its amazing how much i can see now while i am driving.) I didnt get home until 6pm and my partner didnt get home til half 6 so we didnt go for a walk then either, by the time we made dinner, cleaned up and put the kids to bed, it was about 8.30pm and all i wanted to do was go to bed.
We shell go for a walk tonight, - altho we do also need to go to town to get some food, so we will have to see if we go tonight also, but after lunch, my youngest and i will go for a walk and watch them do silage (that will be about a 3 km walk).

the weekend

As i am gearing up for the weekend,
Last night we went for a 2 km walk across some country, carrying the kids. Its actually really hard carrying 6kg and walking across uneven ground. We only had a little walk to keep it up but as i have gone from doing not much to doing heaps my legs actually really hurts.
This weekend i am planning to stay with my mum as i am working two days this weekend which will be really good for me. I actually really enjoy working.

To do list today,

• c25k
• Dishes
• Washing
• Cleaning the living room and my bedroom